I've had the heebie geebies since 5:30 this morning. All kinds of anxiety over every stupid little thing. I would tell myself that it was just withdrawal and that would help a bit, but 15 minutes later I would be right back at it again. Example. I decided to make the hour drive to Calgary today because there was something I wanted to get for Roo that was not available in town. At some point I remembered that I had not screwed the top back on the sewer connection at my RV site. I started worrying about the guy next to me being pissed because it just happens to be very close to his front door. I stressed about it all the way back from Calgary and in actual fact headed back sooner then I had planned. When I got back, guess what? The top was back on and my neighbours were already gone!
I know it's gonna be like this pretty well all the way through now, and will certainly get even worse. I wish I knew the answer but quite frankly I don't think there is one. The reality is that I am physiologically addicted to exercise and the withdrawal is a fact of life. I can only work to manage it as well as possible.
One of the ways of course is to stay busy and at the very time I could get lots of shit done at home I am not there. I could be fixing my motorhome but I am afraid to take it apart and then not have the right tools to do it properly. I could be working on my bike but that's kinda my Penticton week project. I could go to Calgary every day but that just costs money. Oh, and of course, I could be making mad, passionate love to my wife but guess what??
So. One carries on.
Even freakin colder here last night. We actually had ice in the puddles which I guess means it reached zero. I know I had to get up about 3 am to get another blanket. I could have turned the heat on but I have a choice between the heat pump which is noisy but uses their electricity, or the propane heater which is quieter but uses my gas! I'm happy with the extra blanket.
We also seem to have some Internet functionality back here in the park so I didn't have an excuse to go to either Starbucks or McDonalds. Instead I wlked to the grocery store which had the added benefit of calming me a little.
Just swimming tomorrow morning and then I need to find something useful to do. Laundry maybe? Saturday should be okay as I need to ride for a couple of hours and then as soon as Roo is back on Sunday it's off to B.C.
(no workout)
"Nerves and butterflies are fine - they're a physical sign that you're mentally ready and eager. You have to get the butterflies to fly in formation, that's the trick."---Steve Bull
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Peter
I know it's gonna be like this pretty well all the way through now, and will certainly get even worse. I wish I knew the answer but quite frankly I don't think there is one. The reality is that I am physiologically addicted to exercise and the withdrawal is a fact of life. I can only work to manage it as well as possible.
One of the ways of course is to stay busy and at the very time I could get lots of shit done at home I am not there. I could be fixing my motorhome but I am afraid to take it apart and then not have the right tools to do it properly. I could be working on my bike but that's kinda my Penticton week project. I could go to Calgary every day but that just costs money. Oh, and of course, I could be making mad, passionate love to my wife but guess what??
So. One carries on.
Even freakin colder here last night. We actually had ice in the puddles which I guess means it reached zero. I know I had to get up about 3 am to get another blanket. I could have turned the heat on but I have a choice between the heat pump which is noisy but uses their electricity, or the propane heater which is quieter but uses my gas! I'm happy with the extra blanket.
We also seem to have some Internet functionality back here in the park so I didn't have an excuse to go to either Starbucks or McDonalds. Instead I wlked to the grocery store which had the added benefit of calming me a little.
Just swimming tomorrow morning and then I need to find something useful to do. Laundry maybe? Saturday should be okay as I need to ride for a couple of hours and then as soon as Roo is back on Sunday it's off to B.C.
(no workout)
"Nerves and butterflies are fine - they're a physical sign that you're mentally ready and eager. You have to get the butterflies to fly in formation, that's the trick."---Steve Bull
Love
Peter
I think tomorrow, after your swim, you should go out to a nice spot out in the beautiful nature/wilderness all around you, and just spend a good hour on your own. Or read a book. Enjoy the solitude.
ReplyDeleteAgreed. Hard to believe you cant find something to do in the mountains. I got less than 2 days there this summer when I really needed a week. Go to Banff and take the Gondola up Sulfur Mountain. Go see Lake Louise or Moraine Lake. There are some beautiful easy hikes. Try Johnson Canyon. I have always found peace and a sense of awe and wonder in the mountains. I hope you can find the same.
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Hey Pete I think you are close to the Canmore Nordic Centre. You probably know about it but they have mountain bikes and trail running - might be interesting to see the facility if nothing else. They hold a triathlon there and the swim is held in Quarry Lake. Check out their website. Google Canmore Nordic Centre.
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