"Free At Last"

Free at last! Free at last! Thank God in heaven, free at last.

While my little bit of freedom barely compares to the freedom of an entire race that MLK was talking about, today is still an important little moment in my life. Perhaps it was a good thing that I got fired right in the middle of this treatment schedule as it has heightened the anticipation even more. Tomorrow morning I will wake up and when I do my very first priority will be what kind of a workout I will do, as it will be each and every day after that. Once that has been determined I will fit the rest of my life around it. I have a million things that I need/want to do around here, and another million that Roo needs/wants me to do, but the beauty of it is that almost all of them can conform to my schedule. Of course there will be a little grandchildren stuff that will require some kind of commitment, but as you are aware that does not cause me much pain. 

I truly feel so incredibly lucky, and yet at the same time I am beginning to accept the idea that maybe I deserve it. I'm sure that many people looking at me from a distance may think I have had it all my way, but I'm comfortable that I've sweat enough sweat, and shed enough tears, to justify the freedom that this day has brought me.

When I got home I celebrated by eating 5 chocolate chunk cookies and drank 2 cups of coffee, for a total of 750 calories and 30 grams of fat! Unbelievable eh! One must be eternally vigilant.

I received a little keepsake form my friends at Hamilton General. I have to give them credit for trying to be thrifty about spending our tax dollars. Everyone gets their own little cubby there in which they store your, sheets, your gown, your mask, and your 2 bottles (drink and pee). This of course saves bucks on laundry etc. So here's my keepsake.



Of course while they save a couple of hundred dollars in detergent they make up for it by operating the chamber with it's expensive equipment and expensive space, for 6 hours of the freakin day! I waited for 6 months to get into this thing and with 2 tubes they can still only provide service to one new patient per week. Now they are talking about closing the unit because they lose money operating it. No shit!

Anyway, that's all the criticism I have of anyone or anything today. As Roos favourite bit of writing says, "with all it sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world". Game on!

No workout again today other than the cross training associated with eating the cookies.

Normally I let the quotes I find speak for themselves but this one I found so brilliant that I needed to tell you how it struck me.

"You have freedom when you're easy in your harness."---Robert Frost

I read this as meaning that freedom does not mean idleness. There is work to do, and we all have a responsibility to contribute. But if you're 'easy in your harness', you have probably chosen your own work, and you are content in doing it....that to mean is freedom.

Love
Peter