That's my plan for 2012! Whadda ya think?
Well maybe it's not the plan for the whole year but it sure seems to be the way I started it out. At least the eating, sleeping, and worrying part! You can't doo too much training! Well I guess you can but I'm a long ways away yet.
I feel angry with the world on this first day of a new year. I don't think the world deserves my anger but it's either that or be pissed at myself. That of course is where the anger, or at least the frustration properly belongs. I'm tired of paying for the mistakes I've made and I want to be absolved of my quilt. If I thought it would work I would go down to the local catholic church and sit in the little dark booth and maybe say a few hail marys or something. Unfortunately I know the only one who can forgive me is me, and I ain't the forgiving type. What a quandary eh?
I'm also really effin tired of being a parent. I don't regret having any of them but why did someone not forewarn me that it was a lifelong commitment. Everything else in life comes and goes but once you have kids you're on the hook for ever. It can just sap the life out of a person, or at least that's what it seems to do to me. I think that if I belived that all of my kids were at peace then I could handle just about anything else without whining. Unfortunately when any one of them is struggling I feel like I am carrying the world on my shoulders. What's that guys name that always had to roll the stone up hill? Oh yah. Sisyphus. When I checked up on the myth I realized how appropriste the reference is for me. He had to roll the stone up hill only to have it roll back down as soon as he got it there, and his punishment was designed specifically because of his "hubristic" belief that he was cleverer than everyone else. That would be me!
I expect a lecture from Old John of course and I welcome it fom him or anyone else as long as it also comes with practical advice. Just plain lecturing I can do myself.
On a lighter note, Santa brought Colby the most amazing toy I have ever seen this past Xmas. It is something called Lego Technics and it is a combination of conventional lego and a whole series of electric motors, gears and other drive train elements. Since Santa bought the toy online from Toys R Us, he was given an opportunity to post a review which if approved would then appear on the site for other potential buyers to consider. Because I was so impressed with this thing and Colby really seemed to enjoy building it I decided that for once in my life I was going to respond to such a request. The link they provided took me to this statement.
"When a product review is submitted on this website, you grant Toys R Us and it's afilliates a nonexclusive, royalty free, perpetual, irrevocable, and fully sublicensable right to use, reproduce, modify, adapt, translate, create derivative works from, distribute, and display content throughout the world in any media"
Fuck off you idiots! Needless to say I did not post a review!!
(swim 1000 metres, bike 30 kms)
"Where there is anger, there is always pain underneath."---Eckhart Tolle
“The simplest toy, one which even the youngest child can operate, is called a grandparent.”---Sam Levinson
Love
Peter
Well maybe it's not the plan for the whole year but it sure seems to be the way I started it out. At least the eating, sleeping, and worrying part! You can't doo too much training! Well I guess you can but I'm a long ways away yet.
I feel angry with the world on this first day of a new year. I don't think the world deserves my anger but it's either that or be pissed at myself. That of course is where the anger, or at least the frustration properly belongs. I'm tired of paying for the mistakes I've made and I want to be absolved of my quilt. If I thought it would work I would go down to the local catholic church and sit in the little dark booth and maybe say a few hail marys or something. Unfortunately I know the only one who can forgive me is me, and I ain't the forgiving type. What a quandary eh?
I'm also really effin tired of being a parent. I don't regret having any of them but why did someone not forewarn me that it was a lifelong commitment. Everything else in life comes and goes but once you have kids you're on the hook for ever. It can just sap the life out of a person, or at least that's what it seems to do to me. I think that if I belived that all of my kids were at peace then I could handle just about anything else without whining. Unfortunately when any one of them is struggling I feel like I am carrying the world on my shoulders. What's that guys name that always had to roll the stone up hill? Oh yah. Sisyphus. When I checked up on the myth I realized how appropriste the reference is for me. He had to roll the stone up hill only to have it roll back down as soon as he got it there, and his punishment was designed specifically because of his "hubristic" belief that he was cleverer than everyone else. That would be me!
I expect a lecture from Old John of course and I welcome it fom him or anyone else as long as it also comes with practical advice. Just plain lecturing I can do myself.
On a lighter note, Santa brought Colby the most amazing toy I have ever seen this past Xmas. It is something called Lego Technics and it is a combination of conventional lego and a whole series of electric motors, gears and other drive train elements. Since Santa bought the toy online from Toys R Us, he was given an opportunity to post a review which if approved would then appear on the site for other potential buyers to consider. Because I was so impressed with this thing and Colby really seemed to enjoy building it I decided that for once in my life I was going to respond to such a request. The link they provided took me to this statement.
"When a product review is submitted on this website, you grant Toys R Us and it's afilliates a nonexclusive, royalty free, perpetual, irrevocable, and fully sublicensable right to use, reproduce, modify, adapt, translate, create derivative works from, distribute, and display content throughout the world in any media"
Fuck off you idiots! Needless to say I did not post a review!!
(swim 1000 metres, bike 30 kms)
"Where there is anger, there is always pain underneath."---Eckhart Tolle
“The simplest toy, one which even the youngest child can operate, is called a grandparent.”---Sam Levinson
Love
Peter
Being a parent never ends. We always want to protect our children, make things right. We inadvertently, cause ourselves the pain. It is easy for others to give advice. At the end of the day, you are the one who has to be at peace. Finding it is a learning process in itself. When l'm old, toothless and child like, l'm going back to live with one of my kids. No nursing home for me. Paybacks!
ReplyDeleteWell, can I re-give advice from the last blog? Put yourself in a position or situation where your worries have no meaning or seem weightless. There are hundreds of possibilities. When is the last time you went to the seniors home or the food bank? Concentrate on what is GOOD in your life (I think that should be an easy exercise) this way the crap is in perspective.
ReplyDeleteLove old John
Sounds like good advice John, I love the idea of putting crap in it's place
ReplyDeleteBefore I got married I had six theories about bringing up children; now I have six children, and no theories.
ReplyDelete-- John Wilmot