If all the thoughts I am capable of thinking I have already thunk?
For example, I know this one is not a new one. I miss my Adrian! I wish he could travel with me, and we could get to know each other better. I have fooled lots of people into thinking I have been a good parent but I know the truth of it. I don't wallow in it (or at least not too much) but I know I have not really done any of my children justice. I have aided them when they needed to fight their own battles, and conversely, not always been there when they truly needed me. And furthermore I have, and continue to have, problems deciding when to play which part....the old "wisdom to know the difference" adage.
Alright! That's it! I'm coming home saturday morning and then ain't goin anywhere for the next 9 months other than Penticton. As soon as I get home I need to avenge my long run screwup from last week. I hope this post goes up okay since the Internet connection here is almost non-existent.
"But, in fact, there is nothing that can bring you closer to fearlessness about everything else in the world than being a parent - because everyday fears pale by comparison to the fears you have about your children."---Arianna Huffington
"In order to influence a child, one must be careful not to be that child's parent or grandparent."---Don Marquis
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Peter
For example, I know this one is not a new one. I miss my Adrian! I wish he could travel with me, and we could get to know each other better. I have fooled lots of people into thinking I have been a good parent but I know the truth of it. I don't wallow in it (or at least not too much) but I know I have not really done any of my children justice. I have aided them when they needed to fight their own battles, and conversely, not always been there when they truly needed me. And furthermore I have, and continue to have, problems deciding when to play which part....the old "wisdom to know the difference" adage.
Alright! That's it! I'm coming home saturday morning and then ain't goin anywhere for the next 9 months other than Penticton. As soon as I get home I need to avenge my long run screwup from last week. I hope this post goes up okay since the Internet connection here is almost non-existent.
"But, in fact, there is nothing that can bring you closer to fearlessness about everything else in the world than being a parent - because everyday fears pale by comparison to the fears you have about your children."---Arianna Huffington
"In order to influence a child, one must be careful not to be that child's parent or grandparent."---Don Marquis
Love
Peter
I am pretty certain these are very common thoughts for all parents. I sometimes wonder if it is more common in our extended family than in others, but I doubt it?? Some might say you are only paying back a debt that you incurred when you were the subject of another parents worry and regret. I support your decision to not spend too much time dwelling on it, after all, there will be lots of opportunities to get to know Adrian better, but there can never be enough.
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Not wanting to raise my kids in the enviornment as l was, l went overboard in the 'protection' aspect of parenting. They are now young adults and I am finding, finally, tough love does work. Took along time to get to this point. Dustin is prime example of my achievements. Thanks, you make me feel so normal. xo
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