"Every Thing is Relative"

I was going to write a post about how tough it is right now to keep plugging along, with the race still some 8 months away and a winter still to conquer.  To gain some perspective I thought I would go back to my old blog at the same relative time, to see what I was accomplishing then.  I skimmed through several posts which seemed to suggest that I was having similar struggles back in late 2008.  And then I came to this entry made in January

"Why oh why did I wake up this morning, after a decent nights sleep, feeling like I just wanted to hide under the covers for the rest of my freakin life?? Somebody tell me! My rational mind tells me that I should be at peace as I truly have little worth worrying about, and yet I can't capture that elusive feeling. Why can't I just focus on my Ironman without feeling guilty about it, and say screw everything else"

Pretty cool eh?  I was still struggling with pretty severe depression then, and I can honestly say I have not had a morning anywhere approaching that througout this whole most recent undertaking.  Who cares about a crappy swim, or some lazy weight training?  I wake up every morning around 7 am without an alarm and immediately get up and make myself some breakfast.  I often go back to bed to enjoy it, but never go back to sleep!!  Amazing!!

Upon this really cool realization I sat down at my desk to tell you about it, and in doing so I noticed the other computer scrolling through pictures as a screen saver.  Before I tell you what came up on the screen at that very moment  I need to tell you that our Michael is home for Christmas and sitting in the living room.  Micheal is 25 years old and currently working on his PHD in Sociology at Western.  Unfortunately I spent an hour unsuccessfully trying to get the pic to upload.  You will have to settle for my description of a completely obliterated 2002 Chevrolet Avalanche.  It still makes me weak when I see it.

(swim, 2000 metres)

"Fuck!  My life is good!  Everything is relative!"---Peter w Rooyakkers

Love
Peter