number 10 in the program but number 1 in my heart
#10--the right reverend father Ken Farrell for trying to get his hands in my pants...shame, shame Padre. He did try to apologize some years later with this statement..."you had to be pretty naive not to know what was going on"....no shit!!!
#9---the right reverend Hawkins who did worse to someone I love, and whose death motivated my dads statement that "the good ones always go first"...again...no shit !!!
#8---my dad for being too wrapped up in his religion to see what should have been obvious signs. Actually for that, and for making me kneel in the corner, on the concrete floor, with my hands in the air!...no shit!!!
#7---Sister Michaela for slapping me across the face several times in a row for using incorrect grammer, but without any explanation for the slaps...no shit!!!
#6---N.H. those who know, understand, and for those that don't it was my own stupid fault anyway, for trusting someone so fucked up herself!...no shit!!!
#5---My children who don't really deserve it because they didn't do anything to me, that I, or someone else didn't first model to them...but I forgive them anyway...no shit!!!
#4---Dr Hammond and his cancer machine. Again he doesn't deserve it because he only did to me what I asked for. I am however a little angry about not understanding the lifelong side effects better, so I do need someone to forgive....no shit!!!
#3---The guy from the Burford hich school wrestling team who knocked my very first tooth out some 40 years ago, which is why I have a bridge today that gets a little less dependable every year....no shit!!!
#2---Oprah Winfrey for letting Dr Phil out of whatever zoo the man belongs in! What a freak!...no shit!!!
...and the number one person I choose to forgive remains a bigger challenge than all previous nine combined. Why? Because with those nine offenders I know of a few transgression that they committed, but this persons crimes are all in my head....each and every one of them! No exceptions! And the list is numerous. It covers every gamet of life from childhood stupidity with his siblings, through his working career with co-workers, through his children, his spouse, through law and government, not to mention all the monstrous things he did to himself! This guy has done it all to as many people as he can count. Yes it's tough to forgive this guy but I wish to try despite my familiarity with his crimes. Wish me luck.
#1---Myself...Yup! No Shit!!
(24 km run 2:09, very very tough today)
"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you."---Lewis B smedes
"He who is devoid of the power to forgive, is devoid of the power to love."---Martin Luther King Jr
"God will forgive me. It's his job".---Heinrich Heine
Love
Peter
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